non so se si possa descrivere questo mio stato d animo, e nemmeno ho voglia di cercare le parole adatte, mi lascio trasportare da quella voce che non mi da tregua e che continua a bisbigliare.a volte mi fa stare male ma continuo ad ascoltarla.non dovrei a volte.riesce ad essere cosi brusca a volte, non fa caso a come mi possa sentire a volte. crede di essere invincibile, e che il dolore deve essere imbottigliato e chiuso ermeticamente, senza che nessuno lo possa sentire. o capire!
non ci sono risposte che mi alzano da questo letto di fantasie, non permetto ai raggi del sole di asciugarmi. eppure sono completamente fradicia. come faccio a non accorgermene? e quando lo faro' come posso fare per ammetterlo?

a volte tutto intorno gira cosi veloce che riesco solo a chiudere gli occhi in tempo per non cadere.
a volte invece lascio che i rumori e i colori intorno scompaiano, e entro nel vortice e mi lascio centrifugare.

Get out of here!!

My weekend in Wellington started wonderfully having to pay twice for my bus ride!(not cheap)!
Then, if that wasnt enough, once in the capital, i checked in the hostel with the biggest dorm in the world (20people), the public phone down the road swallowed 5 dollars while trying to call home, nobody around the city would trim my hair for less than 50$ (i went mad one day and i cut it myself and now i need a fix..ops!..thats why i dont post any photos..), i broke my skate board (i did shed a tear)and now i ve been told i will have to pay 50$ at the airport to change my flight ticket, dated 21st Feb, when it was supposed to be free.Cazzo!i need to get out of here.
So, the plan is now get a good (and free!) sleep at the airport, have a good peanut butter sandwich and keep smiling!!!

what do i really want right now???

well, the list is endless and, at times, a little private, but last nite, after staring at the guy snoring in front of me for a good hour, i came up with a list of things i would have love to be doing or having right at that moment (it was like counting sheep jumping over the fences..the difference is that i got a bit carried away and i was more awake than when i started)
A private bathroom for at least 2 hours. with tons of toilet paper, clean showers, crispy dry towel and million of bubbles!!(just cuz is a wish list!),A single bedroom for one night. no farts in the middle of the nite, no fat guys snoring, no smelly socks, no 3am lights on and drunken germans getting in an out, no alarm clock going off at 6am, no packing the bags in the morning without knowing what you are throwing in..ect ect,a massive buffet (all you can eat, for free). the menu would include: Maria's tortilla de patata, Sonia's pumpkin soup, betta's gnocchi, mum's tiramisu, ambro's pizza, broth's John Wayne's beans, Brian's (frozen)garlic pizza bread and Tesco's hazelnut creamy yoghurt, Giunny's tapas, Juan's salads(with lots of bread),Giovanni's mum's veggie lasagne, Polo's bagna cauda ...ect ect, and go back to Rotorua smelly hot thermal spa overlooking the lake with all my friends ..and have the craic!!

East Cape!

The North Island Adventure is goin on, this time by east.
It took me 3 days to go all over the peninsula, stopping by at Hicks Bays (where i took this pic).
Beaches are just empty, the whole place is so remote that you wonder what the world would be with no humans around..(i wont tell you what my answer would be, although most of you know it already).
I returned to Turangi last nite, and today i walked the Tangariro Crossing (1860mt, 7 hours of hiking).. pics will be next.
internet is still dear as hell, and if it wasnt because this morning i found a pot of Nutella on the free food shelve, i would have felt a bit down..(eating porridge and kiwi every morning is not what i call "a good start".
the plan for the next few days is looking for a lift toward Napier and some village in the middle of vineyard..
ill keep ye posted.

hey guys, thanks for the emails, they really keep me up when my own company is becoming unbearable..i really love ye all!!

summer days in Auckland!!

(that s what i mean by "sticking my tongue out.."


..and someone dares jump from this height with a rope wrapped around their waists...Crazy!!!

The "City of sails" is a nice old city..
I spent the first 2 days getting drunk with some swedish crazy people and going to tour trips around the city in the early mornings..good stuff!!
Then left society, cars and Sky Tower for 3 days and went up, up, up the north around Pahia and visited some amazing places..reminded me of Ireland, but with a lot more sun!!
Im going to head down east tomorrow, to visit some maori friends of mine at their villages, and dance around, sticking my tongue out here and there..

kia orana!!

..i stared at those tiny atolls lying in the very middle of the Pacific Ocean while flying above them and i couldnt help but thinking how far we were was from everything else..

Cook Islands have been fantastic!! 4 days out of 5 were rainy, but it didnt really matter to me, i got burned anyway..
that island was like paradise to me, going snorkelling near the shore and spotting beautiful fish.. enjoying a real mango picked from a tree, drinking water out of a "nu", getting lifts to town by the local maori and watching women making flower crowns at the local shop..well, its something out of this world..especially the local maori..they are big, man!
included on the list of things i wouldnt do again: taking the local bus, having had the brilliant idea of exploring the south of the island at around 7.30 pm and suddenly realizing is pitch dark by 8..i was left by the side of the road in the middle of Rarotonga, by a quite amused bus driver, trying to convince myself that there must have been some "cornen shop" opened around there..learning that the biggest of the Cook Islands doesnt have a damn corner shop, nor lights at the sides of the main road, nor tourists silly enough to be seen walking for a full hour before reaching the "city centre".. (but then again..its me...there must be a story to tell every time)

after being reunited, me and Colm (still everyone we meet think we are a couple)..(he doesnt know what to do anymore to flick his head back when laughing in a more camp manner)have reached Auckland..in a super cool hostel in front of the Sky Tower..no kidding!!

photos will be next..